Rather than getting caught up in analysis paralysis, just take the leap of faith for a specific niche you want to focus on.

Indeed that would be my preference, but my network is completely outside the real estate world, so the few syndication opportunities that came my way did not convince me, I couldn’t get past the “this person must be desperate if they are asking money to me”, so I never pulled the trigger, it really just felt like giving away $100k on good faith.

Do you think I should back out and get my good faith deposit back and if so (I am 90% wanting out), do I have any legal recourse? 

For residential agreements, usually buyer has the option to terminate the agreement, not seller. and there is an implied obligation to act in good faith in all contracts. 

But again, more importantly, do not put much faith in ANY self published book on ANY subject.

I have been paying faithfully but I owe $135k all in on it.

I asked her to borrow $2 and she handed me the money.Overall, regardless of what anyone writes on the internet, my wife blows just about every woman I ever met with it comes to being faithful, fun, honest and she gets up at 5 am every morning and works until midnight 6 days per week.

How did you finally decide to take the leap of faith and invest out of state?

Fundrise is putting your faith in others and directly investing is putting faith in your own skills.

Asking about their LTC, LTV, point system, draw system, rates, and other details that let them know you're knowledgeable about their business will probably give them more faith you're asking the right questions in your own business.