Brother you are in the right place. I bought my first property about two years ago. I have had a tenant coming up on a year. I went to Biggerpockets for the first time last year and said I wanted to have two more properties by BPCON2023. Well I only have one more but its progress. The point is you are in the right space with people who are just like you. I would suggest really taking advantage of these forum, watch the videos on Youtube. Then set a goal to take action. That's the biggest part.
I bet you are in a better place than you think you are. Its just the fear of jumping off that cliff. I get it but what I have also learned is that the cliff is not as high as you think it is and there will be more cliffs until the cliffs become little bumps in the road.
Just a quick piece of my story. I made good money at work but was afraid to risk my primary income on trying real estate. During COVID when interest rates were low I got my notary commission and started doing mobile notary. I was making $3,000 a month doing real estate closings and refinances. It gave me enough extra income to feel comfortable to take that jump. There are lots of ways to find the money. In the beginning funding feels like its the hardest part of the process. Later you will find that its one of the easiest parts. Good luck to you! If you check my profile you should be able to find the story of my first property. I think it did everything wrong! However, it has still work out!