Off market listings

[William Truby IV]

Hello, been researching anything I can to try and get started flipping my first home on my own. Where can I find listings of houses that are for sale that are either bank owned or foreclosed that are off market ? I’m not sure if I’m even using the correct terminology . Basically trying to find listings of homes that need repair to remodel that can can be purchased with cash “private money loan” that you do not have to buy through an auction. Anything so far I can find online they want you to pay for any such listings . Thanks in advance for any help