looking for someone to have faith and courage to invest in me

[Christopher White]

I have read awesome proposals on here. They are probably the better investment. Here is the brake down of where I am at. 40 years old homeless laying in a respite due to knee surgery. My credit is shot and I have about 60 day sober. I have delinquent student loans and I desperately want to go back to school. I know I sound like that long shot right. My whole life I have been the long shot. Even in my own eyes. Two months ago I ruptured my patella with a three quarters fracture they wired shut. So every time I bend my knee it hurts. To most, this would be a bad moment in their life. Not for me. This was when faith cleared my mind. That day I was broke and doing what I did best convincing others to get me high. Heading to a friend's place I tripped and fell and in mid air my knee popped and all I could do was scream and pray. I laid in a bed for a month only able to sit on the side of my my bed and barley kick that leg. Getting up to walk was feet and inches with a death grip on the walker in front of me. I was starting to fall into depression. All this waisted time laying here. All I had was my phone to pass the time I have been trying to learn to code. When I was younger I had a love for computers. How to build them how to fix them what were the differences between the operating systems. But I put the needs and desires of everything other than my own needs and desires. So here's the pitch. I can't go back to my old line of work as a stylist. My knee won't tolerate the time standing behind the chair. The little I have played with all the free but not so free sites on my phone. Has me wanting and begging what ever higher consciousness is out there for a way to go back and for once not be the long shot that doesn't get close to the target. I don't know what to offer in exchange for your investment. But I am willing to try anything that I can do as long as it isn't too immoral. I know I went the long way to get to the point. The point is I need someone to invest in me and have faith in me like I do now and help me with school or training for multiple boot camps to get my certifications. I don't want the money now but I would rather it be when I get into a program. As for the living situation I have lived on the street off and on since I was 16. I am looking for program on line to where I just need a laptop, plug, and WiFi signal. To do my course work. I am willing to be uncomfortable and inconvenienced to change my life. I have been, to destroy what's the difference the other way around. Destroying you life is a fun crazy toboggan ride down the middle of the interstate during peak traffic times. Building it is seeing the groves in the snow and walking back, dodging cars and getting to where you started just to get to where you actually wanted to go. So will you please invest in me and help me get the tools and the learning to go there. Mentally I am back where I started. But I didn't get the memo I need climbing gear to get to where I want to be. Help this lost boy leave neverland and grow up and enjoy life.