Wow, guys, thank you so much for your input and wise suggestions. @Ryan Blake, i definitely do not need any motivation ( its pouring out of me :-) but I certainly would welcome someone with experience who can be straight with me and say" Hey, not a good deal" or " Grab this deal and run with it and I"ll point you in the right direction."
I don't need anyone do the work for me. I am doing it: DM, calls, driving for $$$, sending out postcards etc. I just feel like it's chaotic and I am frustrated. I hear different things on podcasts, forums: do the first deal and it gets better ( I am sure it boosts your confidence but how do you know it is a "deal"?) or it's important to have someone help you on the first deal to get the right start.
I guess people have different experience with starting out and I have to make my own.
@Caleb Heimsoth , I hear you and agree wholeheartedly. I don't want to "buy" mentor or a coach, but I would definitely do a partnership deal ( and do the heavy lifting) in exchange for experience and leadership.
Thanks for taking time to reply on my post, it helped me to get perspective on the subject.
I appreciate everyone's opinion on the subject.