Dark Days - Is self-imposed pressure dangerous?

I had an experience with a startup company that I helped build from the ground up.  At some point, my boss, the founder and CEO, stopped trusting my advice, despite my decades of experience in a field he knew virtually nothing about.

He had potential investors and current clients telling him: "You guys create an amazing product. How are you going to do something different for us though?"

I advised my boss that we can ABSOLUTELY meet their needs but you need to tell them it's going to COST them more.  And I had been telling him for at least a year that we were already butting up against what a consumer would pay for our product.

And we fought about that for 6 months.  Trust dissipated completely.  After I had been there for 3 years.  So I had to leave.  It was no different than a romantic relationship.  Once trust was gone,  the relationship was done, and I had to move on.

This is part of my journey to RE.  I have begun to realize that I can't work for someone any more.  I'm making this blog public in order to hold myself accountable.  I may not get there. I have dark days of doubt and fear and now being in between jobs that I couldn't tolerate, the self-disappointment looms large.  I come from a family of high expectations.  This pressure NEVER leaves you.

I'm willing to work hard but I feel like I must find work that I can tolerate in order to make this next step.  I can't trust anyone but myself right now, and when the only person you trust is yourself, that doubt expands and metastatizes.  The journey continues.