A pointless life...

[Colin White]

...is what I don't want.

So where do I start? I need money, yeah, what's new. I'm just a kid out of high school. So, should I take the usual route and go to college and study business, or accounting, or medicine, or something else I don't really care about in order to get a moderate-paying job, go out to the suburbs and get a cute little house and get a 9 to 5 job doing crap I don't care about, then come home and watch tv and go to sleep, then wake up the next morning and do it all over again? Is this the point of living?

I'm not here to get "bigger pockets", I'm here to learn how to make money so that I can finally get that out of my overburdened consciousness and stop worrying about it, and pursue what I WANT TO PURSUE.

It's always money. Money to go to school, money for the piano, money for lessons, etc. etc. It's all my dad cares about.

I want to be a classical pianist, but this isn't going to happen because I'm not good enough. Great, so what do I do now? I need money so that I can eat, but I don't want a worthless job.

I live in the Chicago area, if that makes any difference.

Life isn't meant to be this way. I struggle with chronic depression and anxiety and I'm sick of dealing with this stuff.

I'm a sharp kid and I learn quick. I know that pursuing real-estate investment as a career will take endless study, work, and perseverance. But I'm not going to settle for this 9 to 5 office job BS. I also can't make a career out of music because I'm not good enough.

So I don't know where to go from here. Any thoughts would be appreciated.

-Colin